35 pounds of cat litter

I just returned from a trip to the grocery store. I had an enlightening experience while I was there. I am still pondering the whole thing. After several minutes of comparing the prices of quality multiple cat scoop able cat litters, I decided that the best deal for me was a very large container of Tidy cat. Both my daughter and I struggled with it as we tried to heave it into the cart. A thought hit me and I asked her to tell me what the weight of it was. She said "35 pounds".

Wow. So, on about day 12 of the all juice fast when I was down 34 pounds but didn't make it official...THAT'S how much weight I was down? Holy crap! I really cannot get over that. I understand even more now how I was feeling so much better when I was on the all juice fast. (Physically, NOT mentally..Oh God no..not mentally) There was one time I practically catapulted myself out of my chair because I was just not used to the weight being gone. I went to weigh myself today and the new battery had been removed for another item in the house, so, I got more 9 volts at the store today. I will try to wait to weigh myself until my "official" day, Tuesday. I know I'm not 34 off anymore, because I was a fool and stopped doing what I should be doing. But, I won't beat myself up over it. I am seriously hoping I am close to it though. I worked SOOO hard and went through so much. Yes, it was only 2 weeks, but it was a VERY difficult 2 weeks. Sigh.

I wish we didn't need to use the cat litter. If I could keep it like it is, every time I want to make a bad decision for my health I can go over and lift up the cat litter. If I still want to make that decision, I can carry the bucket around with me. To think that I still have a lot more of those cat litters that I'm carrying around! At my highest weight ever, compared to my weight in high school (which was not "skinny") I was carrying 9 of those suckers around on me! Wow. To think I struggle with trying to lift just one!

I've always said that a normal person could never pick up the extra weight I carry and just start walking around with it. I don't know why the concept of carrying around the litter is tripping me out so much!

I just had to blog about this. By the way, I added pictures and a few other things, even at the very bottom of the blog. Not everything is fitting just the way I want it to. I also would like to add more things. The blogger software is easy to use, but I can't seem to make things fit like I want them to. Does anyone have suggestions?

Thanks again!
Dinah