Sunday, August 14, 2011

My first post

Hello! My name is Dinah and I have decided to blog about my weight loss journey. It has been ugly so far, and it will be a long one. So, if you'd like to "join" me, have a seat and hold on tight!

I am discovering a lot of things on my journey. I still haven't completely figured out how I went from a normal size to super morbidly obese and I was "ok" with it. I remember stepping on the scale when I was 19 and being mortified that it hit 200 pounds. What a heifer I was! Oh the humanity! At 5'11", that wasn't a horrible size. Most people told me I didn't look like I weighed that much. If only I had listened to them!

I got pregnant with my oldest child shortly after that, in fact, I lost weight and went down to 190 right before I got pregnant with her. At some point during her 1st and second year of life I gained a lot of weight quickly. My husband returned from a few months at sea and didn't recognize me on the pier because I'd gained so much weight. (he didn't tell me that at the time, probably a wise choice) I would say I probably hit 300 pounds during that time. If not, I was pretty darn close.

So, I'll fast forward to when my oldest was 4. I became pregnant with child number 2. I was 311 when I got pregnant and had just started working out on the awesome fitness equipment at my job with a friend. I lost some weight, and, got pregnant. I don't know if I dipped below 300 before I found out I was pregnant or not, but I know I was 311 when I started out.

When child number 2 was 3 years old, I lost 30 lbs in 29 days. I went from 358 to 328. Then I got pregnant. (Does losing weight make me more fertile???) So, I managed to get back down to 328 after my son was born. But, it didn't last.

At some point over the next few years I passed the 400 pound mark. Then, I kept on going until I was 486. At 486 I was officially 300 pounds more than I had been in high school. I don't think I ever got higher than that, but I never got much lower. My youngest child is now 11 and I've gone up and down between the 460s and the 470s for several years.

So, here I am now. I will post more stories about now, and more stories about before. There is a lot more to tell about my physical state, and the limitations I have at the higher weights.

If you've read this far, thank you! :)


  1. Wow, Dinah! Now that's what I call a powerful first post! Kudos to you for your openness regarding your weight loss/weight gain journey. Owning up to the past and making ourselves accountable isn’t easy by any means, but I think that’s probably the most important step to embarking upon any diet or exercise program if we want to be successful.

    I wish you happiness and success on your path to success. You go girl. I KNOW you’ll do it! :D


  2. We all fight the demons, Dinah. I will add my own encouragement to you to keep up your efforts. I'm about 80 over now, and it is very tough with all the temptations out there designed to keep us from achieving our goals because "they" want what's in our pocketbooks. The "new you" will be amazed at your own accomplishments with each step. Work with the doctor for your best health, and be blessed!

  3. Coming to the place where we are willing to look ourselves straight in the eye without all the bs and games of denial and justification is a huge milestone. You, my friend, are a beautiful person with a heart of gold. It's very exciting to be on the journey to get to the point where the inside and outside jive as you think they should. Sending you lots of love and encouragement as you travel along...wishing you everything you need to succeed.

  4. Thank you so much to all of you! I will be posting more soon. Thanks for your support!

  5. Thanks for letting us know about your blog Dinah! Steve and I have just turned the page on this new chapter of our lives as well - I'm hovering around 300-310 and Steve is around 340 (he won't tell me exactly). I look forward to borrowing your encouragement, and sharing some of my own as we head down this rocky path. Sending you lots of good mojo and wishing you the VERY best.

    Oh, and by the way, yes, losing weight does make you more fertile. Ten years ago I was diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome) - it has to do not only with cysts, but also our metabolism, and our fertility. It is all interconnected. You may want to research it - and if you and your husband aren't preventing pregnancy right now, you should SERIOUSLY consider it. Unless you want another child that is. :)

    Love & Hugs, Michelle

  6. LOL Michelle. All of the other times we did want a child, so we weren't taking precautions. I just wasn't able to get pregnant until right after the weight loss. I am definitely not wanting to do that now! My baby is 11. Can you imagine? Yikes! Not to mention, my health needs to be a priority. I have actually wondered if I have PCOS many times. I have pretty much every symptom. I am on metformin for diabetes, which they also use to treat PCOS. Anyway, Thank you for joining me on my journey! They you for your support! I am looking forward to taking this journey with you and I am here for you!
    Hugs back at you!