I wanted to check in, I've been busy with a lot of things and haven't been blogging. I'm about to get a lot busier but I'll figure out a way to manage everything so that I'm still getting blog time. My weight, by the way, is back "down" to 445. It had been up to 454 within a couple of weeks of not juicing anymore. I'm quite sure it will not be a problem for the weight to keep dropping, whether or not I am juicing. But, I do want to start juicing at least part time as soon as I can.
I had noticed that when I would go to get up I would "catapault" myself the other day. It is because of the weight loss. Can't complain about that feeling!
I am LOVING the weather. However, there have been 3 times recently that I am ready to go walk and it starts raining! lol. If I could be guaranteed there would be no lightning I'd go walk in the rain! That would be awesome to do sometime. But, there's often lightning when it rains here.
Anyway, there's nothing special to post here tonight, I just wanted to let everyone know how things are going.
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Fall is upon us
Hi everyone! I haven't posted in a while so I thought I'd check in. I'm uber excited about fall! The weather is cooling down and we've had some amazing weather lately! I love fall, winter, and spring here but I'm not fond of the summer. Though I must say, this summer has been uncharacteristically "not as hot" here and hotter everywhere else. Leave my grammar alone! LOL
I saw the doctor this week. I've been having so many issues with neuropain and my sugar levels aren't stable so I finally said "yes, let's do this" on the insulin. He said as I lose more weight I will most likely come off of it. He explained how once my pancreas is damaged to a certain point, it's through. Scary stuff. I've known way too many people who've lost loved ones to diabetes. I even found out that at least one of my relatives has died from it. I have it on both sides of my family, which I only recently found out.
Once I started on the insulin it seemed like I had more energy almost right away, my neuropain has lessened some, though it has a long way to go. But, today is only day 4.
My weight loss made my doctor very happy. He told me to keep up the good work and see him in a month. With the weather getting better, I will be walking more. The pain is still there, but the more I move, the better I feel. Most of the time.
I've been very busy with life in general. I've spent a lot of time online trying to get a job. I had one interview and it seemed to go well. She said it is a 2 week process, it hasn't been 2 weeks yet but I'm not holding my breath. Regardless of my skills, education, experience, etc., my physical appearance is huge. (pun intended) I wish I could go back to running my home based business, I took a lot of pride in that and had a good reputation. But, that's not really an option now.
Anyway, I wanted to check in. I hope everyone is doing well. :)
I saw the doctor this week. I've been having so many issues with neuropain and my sugar levels aren't stable so I finally said "yes, let's do this" on the insulin. He said as I lose more weight I will most likely come off of it. He explained how once my pancreas is damaged to a certain point, it's through. Scary stuff. I've known way too many people who've lost loved ones to diabetes. I even found out that at least one of my relatives has died from it. I have it on both sides of my family, which I only recently found out.
Once I started on the insulin it seemed like I had more energy almost right away, my neuropain has lessened some, though it has a long way to go. But, today is only day 4.
My weight loss made my doctor very happy. He told me to keep up the good work and see him in a month. With the weather getting better, I will be walking more. The pain is still there, but the more I move, the better I feel. Most of the time.
I've been very busy with life in general. I've spent a lot of time online trying to get a job. I had one interview and it seemed to go well. She said it is a 2 week process, it hasn't been 2 weeks yet but I'm not holding my breath. Regardless of my skills, education, experience, etc., my physical appearance is huge. (pun intended) I wish I could go back to running my home based business, I took a lot of pride in that and had a good reputation. But, that's not really an option now.
Anyway, I wanted to check in. I hope everyone is doing well. :)
Monday, August 29, 2011
They've just been doing it longer
I have a different perspective than most, at least I think I do. When someone gains weight as a young adult, it worries me. I have several people I love dearly who have put on a considerable amount of weight as newly married people, newly graduated from high school, etc. I have some young moms who have put on a lot of weight since they've begun having children. Due to my own experience, this makes me very concerned.
When I was about 21 or 22 my oldest sister came to visit me. Since I've lived away from most of my family ever since I went into the Navy, they often go long periods of time without seeing me. My sister had concerns about how much weight I had put on since she had last seen me.
We were at a gas station and when I came back out from paying for my gas my sister said "you hold yourself well for someone of your size". I don't remember my response to that, but I knew she was giving me a compliment. I said "you know what I don't understand?" She said "What?" I said "I eat a lot, I don't understand how some people can be so huge, I can't imagine anyone eating more than I do". She said "They don't, they've just been doing it longer".
Though I have always remembered that conversation, it obviously did not stop me from gaining more weight. I have never forgotten it, and I think about it every time I see a young adult gaining weight. I never had a person who actually was obese try to talk to me about my weight or try to explain things to me. I only had people with no weight problems try to tell me what I should be doing and how I should be doing it.
I had a few people try the humiliation route with me. I had one person who loved me very much say all kinds of horrible, nasty things to me one night in hopes that it would make me do something drastic and start losing weight. It only hurt me and made me feel even more hopeless. This paragraph should have been put in the "demons" post I did last week.
I've been having a Very difficult time in non-weight related personal life stuff, but this isn't the place for it. I will say that I've had NO feedback for the last few posts and I'm feeling like everyone has given up because I am not juicing. I have a truly legitimate reason why I am not and cannot juice right now. I WANT to juice and want to feel really good again. I have a dear friend who is about to start juicing this week, she is very excited about the things I told her about it. In fact..this week the juicer I have is on sale for $69.
Please don't give up on me, I haven't given up.
Dinah
When I was about 21 or 22 my oldest sister came to visit me. Since I've lived away from most of my family ever since I went into the Navy, they often go long periods of time without seeing me. My sister had concerns about how much weight I had put on since she had last seen me.
We were at a gas station and when I came back out from paying for my gas my sister said "you hold yourself well for someone of your size". I don't remember my response to that, but I knew she was giving me a compliment. I said "you know what I don't understand?" She said "What?" I said "I eat a lot, I don't understand how some people can be so huge, I can't imagine anyone eating more than I do". She said "They don't, they've just been doing it longer".
Though I have always remembered that conversation, it obviously did not stop me from gaining more weight. I have never forgotten it, and I think about it every time I see a young adult gaining weight. I never had a person who actually was obese try to talk to me about my weight or try to explain things to me. I only had people with no weight problems try to tell me what I should be doing and how I should be doing it.
I had a few people try the humiliation route with me. I had one person who loved me very much say all kinds of horrible, nasty things to me one night in hopes that it would make me do something drastic and start losing weight. It only hurt me and made me feel even more hopeless. This paragraph should have been put in the "demons" post I did last week.
I've been having a Very difficult time in non-weight related personal life stuff, but this isn't the place for it. I will say that I've had NO feedback for the last few posts and I'm feeling like everyone has given up because I am not juicing. I have a truly legitimate reason why I am not and cannot juice right now. I WANT to juice and want to feel really good again. I have a dear friend who is about to start juicing this week, she is very excited about the things I told her about it. In fact..this week the juicer I have is on sale for $69.
Please don't give up on me, I haven't given up.
Dinah
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Juicing...Pros
Hi all! Hope everyone is well. I am really looking forward to being able to juice again. I miss it. I was telling a friend about it today, she has a lot of chronic pain and was curious about it. I was telling her how I felt energetic, yet I could sleep well at night. Her eyes lit right up over that. I was also telling her how my aches and pains were minimal. I just felt good. Now, the emotional stuff coupled with the stuff in my personal life. Not good. But, as far as my aches and pains being gone, my weight loss, etc. It was nothing short of a miracle. Wait..if it were a miracle it would be easy and pain free, right? It was not easy, it also was not pain free.
That being said, I am so ready to do it again. I was reading that they have a 555 plan where you exclusively juice for 5 days, then you add veggies and fruits for 5, then back to the exclusively juicing. That looks interesting! I'm also still hoping that I'll make a juice my son will actually drink. He is very thin and hardly eats anything. I want him to get his nutrition. If I can find something that he "approves" of, I'll give him a big glass of juice every day too.
Now if I can just get through life in general. I will hopefully be able to start juicing again in a few days. Hopefully! I am very much looking forward to it. Tuesday marks the 4th week since I started. It's hard to believe it's been that long, then again, it is hard to believe that it hasn't been longer.
I've greatly appreciated the feedback I've received in emails, phone calls, texts, facebook messages, and from the few brave souls who even comment on the actual blog. Thank you everyone!
For anyone who suffers from a chronic condition, aches and pains, tiredness, etc. I highly recommend juicing to some extent.
Dinah
That being said, I am so ready to do it again. I was reading that they have a 555 plan where you exclusively juice for 5 days, then you add veggies and fruits for 5, then back to the exclusively juicing. That looks interesting! I'm also still hoping that I'll make a juice my son will actually drink. He is very thin and hardly eats anything. I want him to get his nutrition. If I can find something that he "approves" of, I'll give him a big glass of juice every day too.
Now if I can just get through life in general. I will hopefully be able to start juicing again in a few days. Hopefully! I am very much looking forward to it. Tuesday marks the 4th week since I started. It's hard to believe it's been that long, then again, it is hard to believe that it hasn't been longer.
I've greatly appreciated the feedback I've received in emails, phone calls, texts, facebook messages, and from the few brave souls who even comment on the actual blog. Thank you everyone!
For anyone who suffers from a chronic condition, aches and pains, tiredness, etc. I highly recommend juicing to some extent.
Dinah
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Pain
A friend of mine did the juice fast for 30 days without having anything other than juice the whole time. She used the proper methods to break the fast. After adding fruits and veggies, then adding very little meat, cheese, and grains one day, she is back to having severe pain again.
I am unable to juice right now and I am feeling a lot of pain myself. I'm very frustrated. For the sake of feeling better I actually want to juice. I'm not saying I want to go back to not eating at all, but I definitely need to find a balance. Maybe a few days of no food and minimal food on other days will be the formula that ends up working. I just don't know.
I am amazed at the effect eating just a little bit had on my friend. That just amazes me. I am definitely ready to feel better again. There really is SUCH a drastic difference, it is just a trip!
Anyway, I wanted to share that. I have to document all of this for me, if nothing else. When I can juice again, if it works like before, I'll be feeling much better in just 2 days. I wish I could eloquently describe how much I hurt normally and how much I don't hurt when I am juicing. For someone who doesn't live with chronic pain, I doubt there is anyway to describe it. For someone who has it...try juicing for a few days and I guarantee you there will be a significant improvement in the way you feel. Then let me know about it!
Thanks for reading, I really appreciate it. I'd love to hear if anyone that has chronic pain tries juicing for a few days, I know you'll be thrilled with how much better you feel.
Dinah
I am unable to juice right now and I am feeling a lot of pain myself. I'm very frustrated. For the sake of feeling better I actually want to juice. I'm not saying I want to go back to not eating at all, but I definitely need to find a balance. Maybe a few days of no food and minimal food on other days will be the formula that ends up working. I just don't know.
I am amazed at the effect eating just a little bit had on my friend. That just amazes me. I am definitely ready to feel better again. There really is SUCH a drastic difference, it is just a trip!
Anyway, I wanted to share that. I have to document all of this for me, if nothing else. When I can juice again, if it works like before, I'll be feeling much better in just 2 days. I wish I could eloquently describe how much I hurt normally and how much I don't hurt when I am juicing. For someone who doesn't live with chronic pain, I doubt there is anyway to describe it. For someone who has it...try juicing for a few days and I guarantee you there will be a significant improvement in the way you feel. Then let me know about it!
Thanks for reading, I really appreciate it. I'd love to hear if anyone that has chronic pain tries juicing for a few days, I know you'll be thrilled with how much better you feel.
Dinah
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Demons and other bad stuff
Hi! Was anyone waiting on the edge of their seat for a new post from me? You don't have to answer that, lol. I have been thinking about various things to write about for 2 days. I've been having a very rough time in my personal life, it actually started before the juice fast but I was able to feel somewhat in control over something in my life and it was the juicing. I had the attitude that I would control THAT if nothing else. When the juicing was making me more insane than normal..it was making me downright psychotic, I decided that it was best for myself and my loved ones if I ate food. It got out of control from there. I know how to eat healthy, I know what portion control is. I get all of that. I'm not eating everything in sight but I've had my moments.
What have I noticed in the past two days? A lot more pain again. My back pain,it never completely went away, but it is worse again. My sciatic pain is back too. My neuropain was there all along, but the intensity had gone down. It's back to where it was. I am back to being tired most of the time and wired in the middle of the night.
I have been amazed at myself and my complete lack of control. I wish I could talk about the things spiraling out of control in my personal life, but I decided early on that I would be focusing on the health and wellness part of it all. My feelings regarding my health, weight loss, etc. There are places for that, this just isn't one of them.
I am not giving up. I can't. I know that I will die if I do. I don't want to die. I've had a lot of things I really want to do that I've thought about lately. The fact that I eat things I shouldn't and eat too much is a complete contradiction of what I want for myself. I know I have SOO many demons to conquer. Obviously if a person gets this fat and unhealthy, there are reasons they ever allowed it in the first place. Compulsive eating is an actual eating disorder, an actual addiction. It isn't one that gets any sympathy though. In my studies, and life experiences, if a person has any other addiction or any other eating disorder, they are considered sick and in need of help. It doesn't work that way for someone who eats too much. I'm not wanting sympathy by writing that, I'm just writing what I've seen through the years. Even in my Psychology texts there is very little attention given to it.
All of that being said, I AM going to get this right. I've had a lot on my mind and a lot on my plate (I don't mean the food, I mean stuff I am dealing with). I loved how I felt when I wasn't in as much pain and was dropping at the rate of 3 lbs a day. I want to feel good again. Three weeks ago today this all started. I can't believe how much has happened in only 3 weeks! It's hard to believe. I know that a lot can happen in the next 3 weeks. I'd like to put in a request that it be GOOD stuff, not bad! :)
I'm still here.
I WILL get this right.
I hope nobody gives up on me, I have hit a bump in the road, I need to find a way to get up and keep going.
Dinah
What have I noticed in the past two days? A lot more pain again. My back pain,it never completely went away, but it is worse again. My sciatic pain is back too. My neuropain was there all along, but the intensity had gone down. It's back to where it was. I am back to being tired most of the time and wired in the middle of the night.
I have been amazed at myself and my complete lack of control. I wish I could talk about the things spiraling out of control in my personal life, but I decided early on that I would be focusing on the health and wellness part of it all. My feelings regarding my health, weight loss, etc. There are places for that, this just isn't one of them.
I am not giving up. I can't. I know that I will die if I do. I don't want to die. I've had a lot of things I really want to do that I've thought about lately. The fact that I eat things I shouldn't and eat too much is a complete contradiction of what I want for myself. I know I have SOO many demons to conquer. Obviously if a person gets this fat and unhealthy, there are reasons they ever allowed it in the first place. Compulsive eating is an actual eating disorder, an actual addiction. It isn't one that gets any sympathy though. In my studies, and life experiences, if a person has any other addiction or any other eating disorder, they are considered sick and in need of help. It doesn't work that way for someone who eats too much. I'm not wanting sympathy by writing that, I'm just writing what I've seen through the years. Even in my Psychology texts there is very little attention given to it.
All of that being said, I AM going to get this right. I've had a lot on my mind and a lot on my plate (I don't mean the food, I mean stuff I am dealing with). I loved how I felt when I wasn't in as much pain and was dropping at the rate of 3 lbs a day. I want to feel good again. Three weeks ago today this all started. I can't believe how much has happened in only 3 weeks! It's hard to believe. I know that a lot can happen in the next 3 weeks. I'd like to put in a request that it be GOOD stuff, not bad! :)
I'm still here.
I WILL get this right.
I hope nobody gives up on me, I have hit a bump in the road, I need to find a way to get up and keep going.
Dinah
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